Congratulations! It's a real sign of growth when you can revisit your childhood protections with love and compassion for the you who was, doing your best to keep you safe, and realize they're not going to do the job moving forward. None of us have complete safety -- something awful (car accident, cancer, etc.) could happen to anyone at any time. But we have relative safety. And we have security, knowing that whatever does happen, good or bad, we'll be able to deal with it. You're really to be commended on getting past a rough start to flowering as an adult.